From Nobody to Nobody

my feeling when i still at UUM

this is juz what i want to write....
nothing else....
this is my feeling lately...

what are u in ur surroundings??

for me now...
i realize that when i came here,i'm nobody....
absolutely nobody..
and now, i've been here quite for a long time...
and realize i'm still nobody...
and i know when i leave this environment, i'll still be nobody...

what i'm gonna write here, might hurts others feelings....
so i apologize first...
hope u guys can forgive me..

i feel like, it's just my luck to be chosen...
first, i thought its something called 'trust'...
but now, i feel that i'm juz a 'pion'...
i'm not needed here except for a specific job...like i said...'pion'..
only that i must do...
nothing else....

i feel no support...
i'm blind for this field...for this area...
i really dunno anything...
now, i still dunno anything...
coz they juz let me be...
let me loose...

i thought here. there is this family 'thing'...
togetherness...
supporting each other...
nevertheless....NOTHING.....zero....

they called me only when they need me...
to do my job...
they blame me if i don't do what they ordered...
YES SIR....
I AM READY SIR....
I'LL HAVE THE PUNISMENT SIR....
I'M SORRY SIR...
although it's not as vulgar as above, but that's what i feel...
again...
juz being a 'pion'....

But it's ok....
maybe it's my destiny to be like this...
from Nobody to Nobody..
nothing change...
maybe here it's not my place...
so ya ALLAH...
PLEASE GET ME OUT OF HERE...
i gettin tired of this place...
real tired....

From Nobody to Nobody....

Taken from my friendster blog....